Oh man. I have to tell you guys what happened today. I was headed to the bookstore and they conveniently have a cupcake shop at the same mall. Cupcakes and Cake Pops were my FAVORITE things prior to Whole30. They were my goto indulgence, and whenever there was a chocolate-cake-anything on a dessert menu, I would choose that over a fruity one. Anyway. I decided that I would allow myself a cupcake. Afterall, i’m not a calorie freak. This was a very conscious decision, and I decided this in a very calm mindset before I even left the apartment. I think it’s great to treat yourself every once in a while and in moderation.
And do you know what happened?? IT WAS TOO DAMN SWEET! I REALLY REALLY wanted to like it. I tried to convince myself that it was OK, that these had been my old favorites, and how could I NOT like them? But all I could taste was powdered sugar and butter. The cake was too dense. The frosting was too much. I was bummed!
So this got me thinking. I wonder how many things I’m telling myself that I’m craving that would actually be enjoyable anymore? My taste buds have been cleaned and refined now, and although the Whole30 program felt like a punishment at times, perhaps it was really a gift? I mean, I THINK I still like sweet things. I haven’t experimented enough to know for sure.
I also got really tired about 10 minutes after eating it. And my brain went off: *make another cup of coffee* Ah! Do you see that? See those conditioned habits coming through? Eat sugar, have a sugar crash, then caffeinate! Bad!
I’m beginning to think that all these cravings are just psychological and in my head. If today was any indicator, my body definitely prefers the whole foods I’ve been eating. I feel lucky to be able to taste real food again. So to all those currently doing a Whole30 and who feel they are missing out, trust me when I say you aren’t!
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It’s always a mind war! Sometimes I feel like I could literally eat an entire sheet cake, and other days the thought of frosting is enough to induce nausea. Body, what gives?!
I am a slave to the sugar, crash, caffeine world. It’s so hard on my body that on weekends I eat breakfast then go back to bed… So I’m excited that tomorrow begins my descent. I can’t go cold turkey, because financially it does not make sense with all the food that I have, but everything new coming in has to be Whole Eating approved.
I’m rooting for you lady!! however you make it work, I wholeheartedly support you!